Esther where art thou?




hmm.. hullo. it's already 8:19am.
the internet connection in my off is rather slow..thousand clicks awaaaaayyyyy! >_<
well, i have another 2 days to complete my assgs. 2 days....guess have to burn my mid night oil lor..nooo..my bed yg best tu..memanggil2. i cannot sleep..N-0 i c-a-n-n-o-t s-l-e-e-p *slap *slap

well am pretty busy for the past 3 days..got to submit my proposals, tons of slides waiting to be presented,bundles of xm paper to be "demolished" hahahah, piles of letters to be read and re-read n bla..bla. i am in no mood of writing anything...can't think of something good or interesting to write right now. hmm..ok how abt my office.

well pejam celik- pejam celik..its almost a year dah keje di sini.lots of things i hd gone through..the ups and downs..lots of happy moments n not to forget the sad one too..n etc..these things indeed changed my perceptions..my views towards life. sometimes, we don't really get what we want..instead we get something else..out of our expectation.. but as human, we should be grateful for whatever we have right now.

i have a story to share with u. first of all, let me close the present door before i move on with my story. its a story about love, trust and being grateful.

last two years, i worked as a volunteer at the K-Centre. its a centre for special children.ok.. as we were busy preparing for the upcoming party i.e Mrs Ma farewell party, i saw this one little girl..very cute, chubby one..sitting on a table. i soon realized that little girl is actually my little sis's bestfriend. what a small world! i thought to myself. so, i asked her to go to the library for its quite dangerous for children to be around.

later that evening, as i was having my cppa-tea with my friends, she came and sat beside me. she asked for my name, my fav food and etc. having nothing to do, i patiently answered all her questions and we gradually became closer and closer.she was holding a paper plane in her hand. i asked her, who gave you the plane? she don't want to answer to that question. instead, she went on telling me that she is the only child in her family and her mother don't really like her since she is a special child. she had been at the centre for 4 years. i could not choose but to hear. my feeling for her grew deeper and deeper. at one glance, she appeared to be a very passive child, but through our conversation, i realized that she's actually a quite friendly..and talkative too.

she cried when i told her, its time for me to go home. i promised her that i'll come and visit her again. She handed me the paper plane and kissd my cheeks. she told me that the paper plane was a gift form her best friend. i was touched. how on earth could this little girl trust me with the paper plane? i could just throw it into the bin..it means nothing to me..just a paper..that's all! but, i decided to keep it instead. it means a lot to mee..it is a TRUST.



P/s--> i always look down at special children. i think that they are annoying...just like my lil sis.. manja, mengada..hehe however,my one-day encounter with this one sweet girl somehow had changed me..my views forever. as i was driving back to my home, i realized that they are human too.. thay are capable to love and to be loved. owh..i am grateful to have such a lovely and supportive family and friends around me. i couldn't imagine if i were to put myself in that girl's shoes..its just too hard for me..life can be cruel sometimes and i admire the lil girl for her courage and motivation towards life...